That Oxyclean is pretty good stuff

Chelsea.  Vomits.  Still.

I turned down a work project today, and it bugs me because I hated the idea of doing the project, but I also feel badly for turning it down.  It was a big project which was sprung on me unexpectedly last fall, by people I didn’t know but who had a good reputation.  I didn’t want to piss them off, and thought they might be good people to be in business with, so I said “yes” to a project that I felt sort of confused about.  Turns out I wasn’t the only one confused—it was a HUGE project with far too many cooks, yet I was the only one who was responsible for doing “real work”.  Everyone else had “ideas”, and I was supposed to implement the ideas, with the promise of profits if/when the project was successful.  Right before Christmas I decided to turn the project down, as I didn’t know how something could be lucrative if there was no specific goal in mind except, “The project needs to make a lot of money!”.  A few weeks later I received an email from the “idea guys”, begging me to take on their project, offering to scale the project down, and offering to pay me up front for the work.  I thought about it and again said okay, but immediately I began to have doubts again.  The project just didn’t feel right, I wasn’t enthused about it at all, and I had a gut feeling that it would turn into one huge headache.  There’s so much going on right now, with trying to start the new “side business” here at the house, as well as dealing with Chelsea’s illness and doing a bit of home remodeling, well, I didn’t want to have the burden any worry of one more task hanging over my head.  So, tonight I wrote my final, “Sorry, but no thanks” email, and that’s the end of it.  I won’t reconsider, and wish I hadn’t reconsidered in the first place.  It’s so hard to justify saying no to work when you need money, but 90% of the time when I do work on a contractual basis it ends up being a nightmare and a headache.  Nancy and I have enough ideas of our own to keep me designing websites for the next few years, and that’s really what I need to be doing.  I also need to learn how to say no, and to not worry so much about being responsible for keeping everyone else’s lives running smoothly.  I’ll volunteer to do practically anything if a person needs something done, and it’s a stupid thing to do, and I have to stop.  I really, really want to find ways to spend more time doing things I love, rather than just whittling the months away doing busy work.

I watched the Academy Awards, hadn’t seen any of the movies, didn’t care who won.  I was much more interested in the fact that Halle Berry showed up to accept her Razzie Award earlier in the day, and I thought that was really classy of her.  I’m so very into movies and the cinema that on Saturday night I finally saw, “My Big Fat Greek Wedding”!  I’m only about three years behind the current trends.  Know what movie I really loved?  “A Mighty Wind”.  I’d like to see that one again, as a matter of fact.

One last thing… I must post about a long-lost love.  I first saw him on a trip to Vegas 6 years ago, when I was living in San Francisco.  He caught my eye and it was love at first sight (for me, anyway), but my financial situation made our relationship impossible.  I’ve since thought of him often and wondered where he ended up, and today I found him again:

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He is Nighttime Winnie the Pooh by R. John Wright, originally selling for $495 I think.  If I can find one in stock today it’s anywhere between $600 and $800, so I still think our romance is doomed.  I still like to gaze at his photo, though, and dream about what could have been if I had a Platinum Mastercard.

Posted by Leigh-Ann on 02/27 at 08:30 PM

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